Seventeen-year-old Stevie has a strict plan and being sent to a treatment facility for eating disorders isn’t part of that plan. The nurses and therapists watch her every move and if they have things their way, Stevie will be with them for the whole sixty days of treatment. Stevie though, has different plans. There’s only twenty-seven days until the anniversary of her brother Josh’s death – the same day Stevie plans to end her own life.
This was a short but very powerful read. There were a lot of emotional highs and lows and a lot of growth in a short amount of time. The whole journey felt realistic and personal.
I couldn’t help but get invested in Stevie’s arc. She was hurting so much. The flashbacks showed how alone she felt and why she felt guilty over her brother’s death. She was lost, bitter, angry at the world. It was great to see her slowly opening up to the other girls in her cabin, her therapist, and herself. We saw less of the other three girls who spent the most time with Stevie but they were still fleshed out characters with their own issues that caused them to be at the treatment center. They were all so different but their eventually friendship worked.
There was nothing easy about Stevie’s journey. She fought the nurses and her treatment team at every turn and was very careful about what she said to her therapist. She was determined to stick with her plan and until she could admit her grief and forgive herself no one would be able to help her. It was a journey of small steps, sometimes very small, and sometimes it was a step forward and three back before one more forward.
My favourite character in the book ended up being Stevie’s therapist, called ‘Shrink’ by Stevie. She knew when to push, when to back off, and she was obviously invested in her patients. She had some flaws and was able to use them to become better. I liked that she wasn’t made out to be a ‘bad guy’ or uncaring and cold.
The whole book felt so personal that it was almost like reading the main character’s diary. It was touching and left an impression.
*I received a copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.