Release date: May 19th 2015
Alex was diagnosed with schizophrenia at an earlier age. Since then, she’s been fighting to determine what’s real in her life and what’s not. She wants to go to college and she’s sure she can do that. Then comes Miles and his group, the same group Alex has to join as a condition to attending school. They work all the sports events, timekeeping, score keeping, concessions, and soon Alex finds herself making friends among these people. She’s so used to crazy, can she enjoy normal? And is it real?
This book was very memorable. The story focused on Alex and her struggles but still managed to work in side plots for other characters. The writing was addictive to read and it moved at a great pace, not too slow to get boring but not too fast to lose focus.
Alex was a great character. She was an unreliable narrator since we never knew if what she was seeing was real, but her feelings about everything around her, those were real. It was great to see her making friends and trying new experiences as the book went on. She was understandably scared of being exposed to the school but she was slowly opening herself up to the people she could consider friends.
The dynamic between Alex and Miles was fun and interesting. He tried to portray himself as a loner but all the kids in his group thought of him as their friend, even if he couldn’t see it. He and Alex had a great prank war going early on and at first, they really disliked each other. I liked seeing that dislike turn to like and then friendship with the possibility of something more. There was just something that made them right for each other.
There was a mystery with the scoreboard and a few other characters that I don’t want to spoil. It was weird and disturbing and fit right in with the book, the whole time I was wondering if it was all a product of Alex’s mind or if it was real. There were some hallucinations I was able to know immediately were just that, others took some time to figure out they weren’t real. Even by the end of the book, there was still the feeling that there were more hallucinations that I missed or that Alex didn’t know about.
This was a book that will stay with me and I’m glad it made an impact that I won’t be forgetting anytime soon.
*I received a copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.